AlwaySane Is In Da House

Hello August!

Hi! I'm back!

It's August already, and I know it's going to be an exciting month!

1. I am defending my thesis proposal on August 15... (pray y'all)

2. School is going to start (on August 30)

3. I am going on a trip to Toronto (probably on August 24)

4. Weeks and weeks of Project Runway... Bravo!

It's gonna be fun, fun, fun!

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First of all, I want to thank all of you who wrote notes of encouragement to Michelle. I'm sure she'll appreciate your kind words and God bless you richly.

If you haven't written and still want to encourage her, please continue to email me those notes and I'll gladly send them to her.

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Something else happened recently that made me realized how much I've displaced God from the center of my life.

I have a tendency to worry.

And when I worry, I imagine all the things I have to do and how impossible it is to accomplish them. So when this happens, I get depressed and annoyed.

It happened so many times, and times, and times again.

It doesn't matter how much the bible promises me good things, they ELUDE me at those moments of angst.

Recently, I'm suffering a spate of self-pity and helplessness. Why?

A few things actually.

Not being able to make a visit home after all in December.
There may be some issues that will stop me from making that visit home. Even though I have the desire to, and have many reasons to go home, some things like an expired visa and $$$ may hinder me. But still, my God has to be bigger than an expired visa and $2000, right? At that point in time though, God disappeared from my life and my worries took center stage. I was angry with myself for misreading my class schedule, for not checking my visa expiration date, and was ashamed that this trip may mean that my dad had to fork out extra money for me to fly home.

However, God has never disappoint me. It's funny how it was simply a year ago that God created this miracle that gave me the opportunity to study in the States. It has always been my dream, almost like the impossible dream. But our God is a Possible God. How easy it was for me to focus on my own problems and not seeing Him working. Does worry stop our God? No! But it surely makes us lose sight of His miracles in our lives. I've said this many times to myself and look what happened? I still wallow in worry, thinking that my finances are not going to be enough....

Sane has to wake up and see a bigger, richer, and more loving Father!

Future career and fear of lack.
Again. Career had never been an issue. I have always been blessed with work that fits right into my lifestyle and needs. Twice, I was blessed with jobs that gave me the skills, flexibility, networks that I require. So guess what I was worried about? Yes! My future career prospects!

Will I find a job? Can I pay off my undergrad loan? Will I ever be able to have a decent saving?

You may call me insane but yes, I have another year to go and here I am worried about that! ONE YEAR! Am I crazy or what? But still, worry can be a lesson in humility because I realize I was looking at my own efforts and (seeming) achievements, seeing how I can use them in the workplace. When all I need to be looking at is how my God is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. He has provided, and He will always provide. Why should I fear?

So, one night after a *ahem* heated *ahem* argument with my boy about the fact that I cannot go home in December... I went to bed, crying. I was asking God, why?

Why must going home be so difficult?

I prayed, I praised, I worshipped. I repented.

I changed my mind, from focusing on my problems to thanking the Lord.

I asked God, before I went to bed, to show me what He really wants.

What is my life all about? What do You want me to do?

That night, I was blessed with a great sleep and an amazing answer.

And it happened again, through a song.

(Remember how I once had a dream of this wonderful worship session that I was yearning for?)

It is a very upbeat song, almost telling me how life with Jesus is easy!

And this time, I remember the tune! It sounded like the song "...somebody to lean on..."

Wa ha ha ha...

Here it is...





"See the clouds and be afraid, see Jesus and fear goes away!"

I.Absolutely.Love.It.

It's Daddy's song for me!

"...He will quiet you in His love,
He wil rejoice over you with singing."
- Zephaniah 3:17

And our God sure loves singing!!!

Don't you just love how God is so wonderfully powerful, and yet to intimately in love with us?

Awww...........

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Stop the presses!

I've an announcement to make!

*Ahem*

In October this year, my friend and I will be going to the New York State Communications Association Conference to present a paper. Our topic is "Evaluation of persuasive messages"!

Hallelujah Praise the Lord!

We are so excited that we even planned on which massages to go to!

Because...

The conference is going to be held at a RESORT AND SPA! (AWESOME!!!)

Don't worry. I checked. This one got no casino. But... got bar though :P

Anyway, we're going to definitely freak out a week before the conference and convince ourselves not to go... But now, we're just ecstatic!!!

God is good!

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By the way, when I told my mom and dad about the conference, these are their responses.

Note their styles.

Mom: You are really my darling! I'm so proud of you. Go buy yourself something nice to wear and dress for the occasion.

(Coming from a true blue vain shopper.)

Dad: Great news! What paper is it? Toilet paper??

(Coming from a true blue mr sia.)

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Something wrong with Explorer. I am not able to upload pictures on blogger.

Have to do it on Mozilla or Safari.

Anyone knows WHY?

Is this a sign that I should migrate to Mozilla once and for all?

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